Palespyder’s Web

My job is stressful. I basically make sure or more to the point, attempt to make sure that our website http://www.sheplers.com comes up at the top of the search results for things like cowboy boots and cowboy hats. This is sometimes a practice in futility as a friend of mine said about the PPC market “It’s like playing chess with a Supercomputer”, mine is like playing chess with that same Supercomputer only I am blindfolded and not allowed to know what moves he is making until it is far to late.

I have thought a good many times that it might be better to work as someone who does not have to think for a living, but the truth of the matter is I am just lazy and a victim of my own circumstances. I have run away from hard work for so long that anytime anything gets remotely difficult I run away. As I am trying to “grow up” and learn as much about myself in the process as possible, I stumbled upon this fact. I will now be working to alleviate that burden as well. There is no reason to run away anymore, it is what it is. If work were supposed to be fun, it would be called happy fun time…

I am restarting Power 90X on Monday. I fell hard this time around and I need to work hard to be more mindful of what I am doing and what I am skipping by not working out. I feel like shit when I don’t workout, I don’t like myself fat, and I am not happy being mediocre anymore. I want, no damn that, I DESERVE TO SUCCEED! It’s a lifestyle change so things will eventually slip and slide, it’s a matter of getting back on the horse and not quitting.

I finished Cai’s pell last night as well as spent some time with Anders talking and working on his shield. I need to get some heater hose so I can finish his bastard sword in time for Valor, actually in time for him to have some practice with it before Valor.